Cliché # 2

your reason

sound so cliché

i hate it when u said like that

because i know what deep inside your heart

just say it

i can cope with it my self

you so hypocrite!

damba sinar Mu

apabila dosa terlalu menimbun
apabila lebih takutkan hamba ciptaan Mu
apabila dosa dah jadi rutin
apabila yang mungkar itu lebih menakjubkan
apabila malu nak laksanakan suruhan Mu wahai Pencipta
...


Ya Rabbi, hamba Mu yang hina meratib sembah pada Mu
ampuni dosa hamba Mu ini
hamba Mu khilaf
hamba Mu menangis dalam hati
...


Ya Rabbi, hamba Mu ini mahu pulang dalam keadaan putih
tidak terpalit satu warna pun


Ameen

Maher Zain - Open Your Eyes

When my mood realy down, feeling sad suddenly, no self motivation, lost in my own self, I will listen to this kind of song. InsyaAllah will regain my self motivation, my mood, my happiness. Whenever I need HIM, HE will always with me, all praises to Allah, HE always love me...



Look around yourselves
Can't you see this wonder
Spreaded in front of you
The clouds floating by
The skies are clear and blue
Planets in the orbits
The moon and the sun
Such perfect harmony


Let's start question in ourselves
Isn't this proof enough for us
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..
No..


We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..


Look inside yourselves
Such a perfect order
Hiding in yourselves
Running in your veins
What about anger love and pain
And all the things you're feeling
Can you touch them with your hand?
So are they really there?


Lets start question in ourselves
Isn't this proof enough for us?
Or are we so blind
To push it all aside..?
No..


We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..


When a baby's born
So helpless and weak
And you're watching him growing..
So why deny
Whats in front of your eyes
The biggest miracle of life..


We just have to
Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds
If we just look quiet we'll see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..


Open your eyes and hearts and minds
If you just look bright to see the signs
We can't keep hiding from the truth
Let it take us by surprise
Take us in the best way
(Allah..)
Guide us every single day..
(Allah..)
Keep us close to You
Until the end of time..


Allah..
You created everything
We belong to You
Ya Rabb we raise our hands
Forever we thank You..
الحمد الله
Alhamdulillah..


Artist: Maher Zain
Album: Thank You Allah
Copyright: Awakening Records 2009

Tak jadi post certain entry

Saya ada beberapa entry yang saya taip panjang-panjang (pendek pun ada), tetapi tak jadi publish. Kenapa? Sebab entry tersebut benar-benar dari isi hati saya dan jika saya publish entry tersebut saya risau dan bimbang ada yang terguris. Saya tak pandai nak luahkan rasa tidak puas hati saya pada orang tersebut jika orang tersebut adalah kawan baik saya, kawan tersayang saya, ahli keluarga juga mungkin.

Blog saya ni kadang-kadang jadi medium untuk saya lepaskan segala yang terbuku di hati. Tetapi kadang-kadang saya masih terpaksa menahan diri untuk tidak publish entry2 tertentu. Kerana terlalu risau dan ingin menjaga hati  certain 'orang'. Takut ada yang terasa dan selepas ini jika bertemu jadi kekok.

Tetapi hati saya certain 'orang' jarang nak jaga. Kenapa? Adakah kerana sifat saya yang tak pandai nak marah depan-depan. Terima sahaja apa certain 'orang' nak buat. Saya hanya menurut jika disuruh itu dan ini sedangkan saya bukan begitu. Saya pantang diarah itu dan ini. Kecuali jika ada perkataan minta tolong dan memang certain 'orang'itu benar-benar tak mampu nak buat/laksanakan perkara tersebut. Saya seolah-olah telah didominasi oleh certain 'orang' sehinggakan saya tidak pandai berkata tidak. Walaupun dalam hati nak kata tidak.

Saya benci orang hipokrit, tetapi saya pun hipokrit juga. Kerana saya pura-pura senyum dan gembira walaupun hati saya pedih terhiris. Orang kata hati menangis tak siapa pun tahu.

Saya juga mudah sangat nak maafkan kesalahan certain 'orang', padahal kesalahan tersebut memang tidak layak untuk dimaafkan. Mungkin juga saya hanya maafkan separuh saja, sebab saya masih teringat-ingat perbuatan certain 'orang' tersebut. Kalau saya benar-benar maafkan saya mesti sudah lupakan kesalahan dia kan?

Kadang-kadang melalui entry saya juga, ada selitkan sedikit kiasan untuk sedarkan certain 'orang' tersebut. Tetapi saya tak tahulah certain 'orang' tu faham ke tidak. Malah saya pun tak pasti certain 'orang' tersebut baca ke tidak blog saya ni.

Saya ni seorang yang sensitif dan cepat terasa, juga terlalu ikut emosi kadang-kadang. Alhamdulillah saya masih ada sense untuk mengawal emosi dan termometer sensitif saya. Agaknya sebab itulah ada certain entry saya tak dapat publish. Sekian.

Nota kaki: Saat saya tulis entry ni, saya baru sahaja tak jadi nak publish entry yang saya taip malam tadi, terpublish entry copacabana pula ◠‿◠. Bila lah nak sambung kisah rumah sewa dan kisah dongeng si jaja ni. Betul-betul kering idea.

P/S: Pagi-pagi dah start merepek dengan jiwa yang lara bercampur baur.

Barry Manilow - CopaCabana

First time I dengar lagu ni masa tengok Madagascar: Escape to Africa, si Pengguin tu pasang pakai cassette player kot if tak silap sebab si pengguin macam berangan duk kat pantai. 2nd time I dengar masa tengah sesak-sesak on the way nak jemput my buddy cik Nadhilah at her workplace. Time dengar lagu ni I terbayang duk tepi pantai Hawaii dengan my future husband berhanimun kat sana (sooo berangan ahhhaa). 

View of CopaCabana Beach (Rio de Janeiro)

Sambil-sambil tension dengan kereta-kereta besar dan mewah berlagak di jalan raya (maklum le jalan menuju ke tempat my buddy's workplace ni kawasan mewah) I boleh goyang-goyang ikut rentak lagu. Maybe because of the catchy melody. Ok, here I've paste the lyric and you can  enjoy the song. Enjoy!

Her name was Lola, she was a showgirl
With yellow feathers in her hair and a dress cut down to there
She would merengue and do the cha-cha
And while she tried to be a star, Tony always tended bar
Across a crowded floor, they worked from 8 till 4
They were young and they had each other
Who could ask for more?

At the Copa (CO!), Copacabana (Copacabana)
The hottest spot north of Havana (here)
At the Copa (CO!), Copacabana
Music and passion were always the fashion
At the Copa....they fell in love

(Copa Copacabana)

His name was Rico, he wore a diamond
He was escorted to his chair, he saw Lola dancin' there
And when she finished, he called her over
But Rico went a bit too far, Tony sailed across the bar
And then the punches flew and chairs were smashed in two
There was blood and a single gun shot
But just who shot who?

At the Copa (CO!), Copacabana (Copacabana)
The hottest spot north of Havana (here)
At the Copa (CO!), Copacabana
Music and passion were always the fashion
At the Copa....she lost her love

(Copa. . Copacabana)
(Copa Copacabana) (Copacabana, ahh ahh ahh ahh)
(Ahh ahh ahh ahh Copa Copacabana)
(Talking Havana have a banana)
(Music and passion...always the fash--shun)


Her name is Lola, she was a showgirl
But that was 30 years ago, when they used to have a show
Now it's a disco, but not for Lola
Still in the dress she used to wear, faded feathers in her hair
She sits there so refined, and drinks herself half-blind
She lost her youth and she lost her Tony
Now she's lost her mind!

At the Copa (CO!), Copacabana (Copacabana)
The hottest spot north of Havana (here)
At the Copa (CO!), Copacabana
Music and passion were always the fashion
At the Copa....don't fall in love

(Copa) don't fall in love
Copacabana
Copacabana